Song 2

19 Mar 2018

I've been real silent on the blogging front for over a month now, and kind of hate it because blogging used to be the thing along with my photography that helped me express myself, document my life, vent, whatever. But it's sort of fallen by the wayside. Not intentionally...there's a bunch of drafts sitting there that are waiting to be finished, but they're just gathering digital dust. 

My mental health this past year hasn't been too spectacular, and a few weeks ago it got pretty serious. Let's just say, I don't want to be admitted to the mental health ward of a hospital again, anytime soon. Was diagnosed with depression (another thing to add to the list of things that make I suppose) and it's made me realise that ties need to be cut with things and people in my life. 

The thing with these mental health 'breaks' is that everything becomes a blur. (Had this happen a few years ago and genuinely have no recollection of what happened in the space of 3+ months). It pains you to fake a smile, it's exhausting just...existing. God that does sound depressing, just reading it back! Thankfully, I'm taking a couple of weeks off of work, spending some time trying to work out who I am. Or at least get to know myself a bit more, and get rid of the things that really add no value to my life. I've unfollowed accounts that make me feel like I'm falling behind in life, and a lot of bloggers. Yes, I want to try and blog more, but I'm going to make it Not trying to take images a certain way just because it'll get more likes and all that jazz. I photograph the way I photograph, and talk online in the way that I do. That's it. Simple as. I need to own it. 

I want to be more active on my blog, but less social on social media. I'm really tempted to delete my Twitter, but we'll see. Basically need to stop living life behind a screen and get out in the world. Not that I'm suddenly going to become a social butterfly! 

So, it'll be interesting to see if I actually start posting more on here and don't leave it over a month until I next do.

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